Wednesday 8 May 2013

Tiny but Mighty

I'm sorry I've I have had absolutely no time to update you ladies! The past couple days have been jam packed. I've either been driving, sleeping, or staring at my gorgeous baby girls. I was discharged from the hospital on Sunday. If you've never had to leave your child behind at the hospital you have no idea how it feels. It's not something that I can explain I words. It's like I was leaving three huge parts of me at the hospital. It was emotional and stressful to say the least. By the time I got home I had called the nicu at least 20 times (I'm not even exaggerating). It's a two hour car ride from our house to the hospital the girls are at and I bawled my eyes out the whole way home with Matt trying his best to calm me down. I just had to keep reminding myself that the hospital is where they need to be right now. They are in fantastic hands and I need to trust them. Emotional to say the least. We left at 5:00 am the next morning to go visit them and spent the whole day - minus lunch and dinner - just watching our amazing little girls. They are all doing so much better! 

Adeline has had a bit of a setback because she's been having reflux from the feeding tube so the switched her back to IV nutrient on Sunday but today she was able to handle the feeding tube again! Because of her jaundice she stills spends most of her time in the tanning bed. 

Eloise is getting a lot stronger and is using only the feeding tube. She hasn't showed any signs of reflux yet thankfully! She now has jaundice so she also spends some time tanning. 

Now Olivia, our dear sweet little Olivia is getting stronger! Just this morning we were told her infection is gone!! I cried when the doctor told us she was all clear. All three girls are still on the vent but Livi will probably be on longer than Addie and Ellie because of the setback with the lung infection. She looks picker than she ever has and just all around healthier. 

Both Matt and I have gotten to hold Adeline for a bedding change. I've only held Eloise the once and we've only been able to touch Olivia's tiny little hand a couple times. Adeline's heart rate stabilized both times Matt and I held her for a few minutes. One of the nurses said when she comes off the vent kangaroo care (chest to chest holding baby) will most likely benefit her greatly. I can not wait for that! I'm so elated lately its hard to stop smile! Now Matt and I are just trying to balance our time with visiting each baby in the NICU and all of our home duties too. We're are very busy but I will try and update again soon!

Friday 3 May 2013

Balancing The Ups & Downs

I've had a couple complications with my health. On Wednesday morning my blood pressure shot back up to 178/110 and my doctor was quite concerned. And my blood work showed odd liver counts. He put me on complete strict bed rest to help lower it and have me a bp medication. I also asked him for something to help me sleep because I had not been sleeping at all since the girls were born. I'm feeling much better now but he's keeping me until at least tomorrow to monitor my liver and just to make sure my bp is staying down.

It's been a whirlwind couple of days. Adeline has been able to be out on a feeding tube with my breast milk instead of just IV nutrients. Her PDA closed after two rounds of medication and she's gained 3 ounces! putting her at 1 pound and 2 ounces over and above her birth weight! She has severe jaundice so spends most of her time in the tanning beds. Haha. I got to touch her tiny little hand for a minute on Wednesday and cried like I've never cried before. There are no words for the feeling I felt.

Eloise had to have surgery on her PDA because after two rounds of medication it was still not closed. She is doing better but still very weak and fragile. She was able to be on the feeding tube also but is still requiring some IV nurtrient supplement. She has gained back 1 ounce putting her at 1 pound 5 ounces. I got to hold Ellie during a bedding change this morning and again balled my eyes out the entire time. I can't explain how amazing it felt to hold my sweet little girl.

And last but not least our poor sweet little Olivia is still holding on. She still has the infection and is on the antibiotics. We're praying for the best but preparing for the worst. She is still on strictly IV nutrients and has lost another 2 ounces putting her at just 15 ounces. It's the hardest thing in the world to see your baby so sick. I want to be extatic about the strides Addie and Ellie are making but my sweet little Olivia is so sick it's hard to celebrate anything. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers and know that we appreciate and are very thankful for every prayer you say for us and our girls. I'll try and update again soon.